teacher????

sapa tamau jadi CIKGU???angkat kaki...ok..im da first one if u want me 2 answer my own ques!..ouhh..kenapa ya sya tanak jadi cikgu..

GAJI dapat bulan-bulan..

KERJA mmg confirm dah..

so, mmg tu ja yg diperlukan untuk teruskan kehidupan..

opps..klo bab pasangan tu..im not available..haahahah..

ya..ak baru balik kelas..arini 4 jam je..its not a long time though i feel i spent almost 40 hours in da class..

urghh...nak tiak ouuuuu~

pasaipa??dun ever ask me...i've answer ur question...

i never put TEACHER as one of my ambitions..

it's not that i hate to teach small, young, hyper2 active kids..

the thing is..BAHASA INGGERIS...ouhh im freakin bad at english people!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't have any confident in me to speak out loud in front of people!

i don't know how to express my opinions..

i don't have chance to speak..

and ouhh..what so ever~

CONCLUSION: I WAS NOT BORN WITH THAT TALENT!!!

that are just excuses right????

day by day..i learn to cope with "that subject"..

tryin to speak and persuade myself that i can do better today..

all positive thinking..

and i managed to persuade myself that yaa..im good at english actually~(perasan a bit)

BUT!!!!!

when it comes to failure to explain or to do something..

i kept blaming myself that i didn't work hard on that particular task..

im not ready!!!

you know how TESL's students study..

LITERATURE is killing me!everytime..everywhere..

the term!the underlaying meaning!the literary criticism!POEMS..!!

CRITICAL THINKING(ya..im really!freakin! weak and bad at this part)

YOU people may say...

la..kacang je tuhhhh...tulis je..kne bnyak bce..

WAWAWAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

im a LOSER =[

people...how now????

should i be teacher???(silly question!!!!)

no matter what..experiences must be gain..

when ever i feel down..

OUR ALMIGHTY is always be there for me..

i try very hard..very smart..to learn all this English stuff..

bcoz i didn't train myself since i was small..

BUT HOW COME MY SISTER VERY GOOD AT ENGLISH????

is it something to do with my brain???

CACAT maybe...

ouhh tidak...

otak sya bukan kepada bahasa..

but more in scientific..

only my best friend knows how BIOLOGY used to be a part of my life...

back to the reality...

say NO to Biology...

say YES to English...

]=[

..far away..

AWAK..

i know when im writing this it will look like im a bit childish..

i just don't care..i want to express my worriness when im thinking that we are going to tear apart by distance soon..

how can i live here without you???ouh..nobody understand..and when i try to explain to you..you also don't try to understand..

yes!you are not only my boy..yet you are my bestfren that know and understand every single thing about me..

people will taunt me.."she got no bf anymore".."she's alone now..pity her"..and blablabla..iskisk..how can face that soon..and when my friends went back to their home on weekend..im alone..and you were the one who accompanied me to wherever i wanted to go..

i have no idea what is going to be to our relationship when we are far..coz..im totally different from other gurl outside there i bet..i can't understand you..i can't make you forget me..n i aweys disturb you even when you are sleeping..and sure do when im destiny with other guy they'll leave me bcoz they bored with my behaviour..but not you..n i sure that..i convince myself that you are different..

i know im bad but that is me..you know me ryte dear..

people said to me...our love will not remain as we are still young and we have to face lots of challenges in our relationship..

people said to me to focus in my studies despite troubling myself in puppy love stories..

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!

......TAK NAKKKKKK.....

i have learn to be with you..

i have learn to make you stand by my side..

but you are not physically with me in 2 years time..

and you know that..why i feel like this??

just you know..im totally posessed by your love..

that no one had gave it to me before..

you really understand me..you really..

and now..

I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO BE FAR FROM YOU PHYSICALLY..

ilysm CHENTA..

hah???!

okay..di sini ak nk wt luahan perasaan tahap tensen serabut pala otak ni..hmm ntah la..asl la a mdah sgt nk mlenting..but still..ak blh control agy..ak nak cita pon tatau nk mula..sbb ak tatau pa slh ak..maybe ak ter"terasa hati" kot..susah weh nk abaq..ak idop dgn jga aty n perasaan org..ak nak buat apa pn suma ak pkiaq org..ak pkiaq org rasa pa..pkiaq pa..suma ak consider..klemahan atau kelebihan di situ??ak asa kelemahan..sbb bnda 2 da avoid aku untuk ckp apa yg ak asa..susa kn manusia ni??tpy ak xpena pn nak regret ke mnde..sbb ak asa itu la pernagai n gelagat manusia..kdg2 mls nk amik kesa..kdg2 terambik kesa plak..which 1???kekeliruan perasaan dan kekacauan jiwa di situ..

ya....

ak tensen ngn perangai sekalian manusia yg pena ak kenal..

tpy ak xpena kesal dgn mereka..sbb mereka2 sekalian bgi ak ruang untuk pk sejenak kelemahan diri ak..

urghhh...okay..da la kot..sat lagi jdi kot len..

aku nak mintak maaf kat cni

IF...

ak ada wat salah kt hampa..sapa2 jela noo..

kot2 ak mati esok ka..kira da selesai la utang maaf ak kat hmpa ok..

ak nk tegaskn kat cni...

aku hanya manusia biasa yg buat kesalahan..

ak cuba jaga aty org lain even di dalam ak memberontak sgt2..

buat mereka diluar sana...

FIKIR DAHULU SEBELUM BERKATA-KATA

sebabnya.....

KERANA MULUT BADAN BINASA...

pstttt: ak nga stady tadi..saja nk oyak(bajet rajin)